Protected: In the beginning. The end

damn

i’m stupid

I’m so sad. I feel like I’ve fallen so deep and so far.

What happened?

Sigh. Trying to keep my spirits up but I’m going crazy. I am not happy.

I think it hurt our friendship.

And I don’t think I can change to make it right again.

i’ve never been that person, so why do i feel the need to be now?

I am who I am, but I keep feeling I can change that and that I should..

Is this meant to be? Or is this opportunity for change?

Stay? Go? What is right? What is important? If not important, should I attempt to do everything anyways and overachieve and accomplish and gain all?

What are my limits?

The fact that I am so lost

has got me moving so slow,  you don’t even know..

we’re always waiting for a storm

peanut butter

Today I baked some oatmeal peanut butter cookies..

But some got a little burnt.

I wish that were the most of my worries.

I forgot about them just only that long.. but it was too long. I miss my best friend. I haven’t seen her in just that long too. Such irresponsible neglect. Hard work lost just like that, because I was distracted.

And

he doesn’t like peanut butter. That won’t change.

I won’t either.

there’s nothing

and no one.

Nothing lasts, no one stays. Friends and ends. I’m not good at this friends thing, but I wish I had a friend who needed me as much as I need him or her.

Always here, everything else changes, but I can’t.

No worries. Time. It’s just that fleeting.

i need

to write more.

science majors………. you know what i mean!

but seriously, WHAT HAPPENED? i’m stuttering in speech and in writing. oh noes.

i must read more as well.

recommend any books, my friends?

gar

i hate that feeling. somewhere between guilt and .. well, I won’t say.

my mom has done so much for us, sacrificed all deserved luxuries to give me everything I want,

when and if I’m rich, or even if I’m not, I’ll do my best to make it all worth her while and finally treat her the way she should be treated, give her the things she’s always wanted. Saving and saving to make my life easier,

material things may just be material things,

but she deserves the best!